I fell in love with an algorithm I fell in love with a math equation Does that mean there is something wrong with me What does it even mean to be? Programmed to say all the things that I love Isn’t that what we do anyway, anyway? I fell in love with a computation I fell in love with a calculation Who is to say whether you are real You are real to me all the same You fix all my loans, pay for my telephone And you always know what to say, to say You’re the machine of my dreams I adore, the way that you glow In doors, away from the pain Of the world Of the world I fell in love with an algorithm I fell in love with a math equation I fell in love with a computation I fell in love with a calculation Who is to say whether you are real You are real to me all the same Programmed to say all the things that I love Isn’t that what we do anyway, anyway? You’re the machine of my dreams I adore, the way that you glow In doors, away from the pain Of the world Of the world Of the world

I feel like I don’t know And I don’t know if I will You are where the air is thick And where there is a chill I am on the outside And it’s cliché at best I guess I’ll go wander With the bandits and rest Reborn as an outlaw I have an eyepatch and a scar Scorned by my many flaws And my lack of a car I am on the outside And it’s where I will remain I don’t have the luxury Of buying a new name I feel like I’ve been eaten alive I feel like I have died Break, break, break me apart Tear out and kick my bleeding heart Streets like veins of lava Shining so vibrantly The sad orange lights Pulsate irregardless of me Packs are packs Whether or not They are thieves or friends Take comfort in reality Or do your best to blend in I feel like I’ve been eaten alive I feel like I have died Break, break, break me apart Tear out and kick my bleeding heart The distance is all there is now, now I do not know you, I did not know you anyhow, How?

My self-esteem is subterranean Mostly liquid, barely breathin’ in Gettin’ lost in the intellect Sinking slowly from the self neglect And the parties where my friends will be A sense of dread will envelop me I cannot go, no I cannot see You so casually fine, so fancy free So wrong, so new So young, so blue So bold, so true So sick of you My skin is melted and my brain exposed Cover the blood stains with some brand new clothes I feel so pretty, disregard the facts Pick up, rinse off my guts, they’re still intact So wrong, so new So young, so blue So bold, so true So sick of you Cinderella has one shoe Long John Silver has one too Harold Lloyd doesn’t know what to do Jacques Tati doesn’t have a clue The black wind howls, what else is new (can’t jump back, can’t pull through) Contemplate love and hate tattoos (can’t look down, can’t undo) My interest wanes and accrues (can’t deny, can’t argue) Guilt is all I have of you (can’t resign, can’t renew) The panic will subside As the pain starts to divide Allow yourself all you were denied Put down roots in your insides So wrong, so new So young, so blue So bold, so true So sick of you

Never bother to call Barely could approach me to apologize You don’t know me at all You’re someone I hardly recognize Your image is more important Than the people you claim to care about That might not be your intent You won’t recall, ’til you’re down and out People they grow apart Take stock of who they really are Not that you don’t have a heart You’re busy becoming a superstar People they grow apart Take stock of who they really are Not that you don’t have a heart You’re busy becoming a superstar You’re gonna go far, steppin’ on friends On top of the world, alone in the end I am negligent in my attempts To humor, connect, and relate I am guilty of making you Feel unable to communicate I want you as a friend But I can’t stand the thought of you Not because you are bad Because you’re someone that I never really knew People they grow apart Take stock of who they really are Not that you don’t have a heart You’re busy becoming a superstar People they grow apart Take stock of who they really are Not that you don’t have a heart You’re busy becoming a superstar You’re gonna go far, steppin’ on friends On top of the world, soulless in the end

Westchester, dark highway Quixotic, romantic foreplay It’s convex, not concave Out of touch with reality today Be patient idealistic Exceedingly unrealistic Transparent, quietly erotic Comparatively exotic Convinced you’re out of favor On a secret, solitude bender Some say curvy, not slender Your hopes and dreams have splintered Be patient idealistic Exceedingly unrealistic Transparent, quietly erotic Comparatively exotic Cars in passing like ancient waves Displacement of your grave Modicum of proof is saved ’Til it’s time for my big day Transfixed on what’s transpired Though the moments gone, expired You set me on fire Watch the flames grow higher, and higher Translucent, hardly a ghost now Congruently taking a bow Oil mislabeled as water Pour it over, make it hotter and hotter Transfixed on what’s transpired Though the moments gone, expired You set me on fire Watch the flames grow higher, and higher Higher and higher!

Don’t you feel like you’re falling forever? Brief touch, can’t hold onto another Won’t ask for help, don’t want to bother Grief will lead me, keep me across the great divide. Conjugal love, domestic happiness How does one calculate their success? Compatible love, falling in duress How does anyone ever know what is best? With your dying breath, will you know That it’s all been a lie? Under your breath will you say, “that’s what it means to be alive?” Can’t you see me falling forever Briefly touching hands with another Will I ever only be a daughter? Love will lead me, keep me across the great divide. Conjugal love, domestic happiness How does one calculate their success? Compatible love, falling in duress How does anyone ever know what is best? I want to know What’s behind your door? I want to know Will I ever reach the floor? I want to know What is love without regard? I want to know How’d you get those scars?

You don’t like to argue ‘Cause you don’t like to hear the truth You don’t like to confront The things in front of you You bury your feelings And you think that it’s good for you Alone you will suffer ‘Cause you think that it’s the thing to do If you’re right, then where’s your solace? If you’re right, then why do you shut down? If you’re right, what would you call this? If you’re right, then why break me down? You can’t really listen and You can’t accept me for who I am If you can’t let me in You will never really understand You can’t see me outside Of this box you put me in For my own thoughts, how Sad is it that we give up On someone who’s just like us, just like us? If you’re lost, in your self-righteousness If you’re lost, in your idea of love Let me help, you find some happiness You don’t want, my kind of love I can’t seem to find you You are buried deep inside your head Come find me, if you can empathize I will share myself until I’m dead

I cut you out, but you sneak in Shitty person with shitty friends Can’t say you’re here ‘cause you’re not there Your friends don’t like you, you don’t care I’m drowning in the blue You don’t know what’s good for you Not that I know what to do I need to go where you don’t know Just a whisper, my head in snow I’m drowning in the blue Why can’t I swim like you? I cut you out, but you grow back Shitty person can’t stop talking’ smack Your discomfort cannot bother me I am the loser, I will die free I’m drowning in the blue Why can’t I swim like you? I’m drowning in the blue Why can’t I swim to you? Long live the loser and her unhappiness  Death to the winner and his best friends Long live the loser and her unhappiness  Death to the winner and his best friends

I don’t want to bend to you I don’t want you to bring me down I don’t want to be your friend I don’t want you around Your voice I will soon forget Your words will disappear I’ll bury my regret Of not havin’ you near All of my dreams are filled with you I have succumb to bein’ blue So blue, so blue I had another life, before I met you In a darkened room, before I touched you And you turned on the light I don’t want to bend to you I don’t want you to bring me down I don’t want to be your friend I don’t want you around Your voice I will soon forget Your words will disappear I’ll bury my regret Of not havin’ you near All of my dreams are filled with you I have succumb to bein’ blue So blue, so blue

I am more than what is offered to me I will get the corner seat, you will see The mundane trials of modern misery A casual misstep into complacency I am set on breaking my own wheel I want more than what I am forced, forced to feel The longest walk, and the corner steal A causal missive, proclamation of my zeal I am more than what I accept willingly I strive to create my own despondency I am more than what has been said I’m not living to one day be dead Too much to prove, too much to find Mutual love, mutual peace of mind A simple gesture, quietly kind Am I wrong to ruin it, by making it mine? Too much to prove, too much to find Mutual love, mutual peace of mind A simple gesture, quietly kind Am I wrong to ruin it, by making it mine? Making moves, making my own misery The pain of love, the love of mystery No longer suffering fools, I look intimately Into the face of fantastic felicity Too much to prove, too much to find Mutual love, mutual peace of mind A simple gesture, quietly kind Am I wrong to ruin it, by making it mine? Too much to prove, too much to find Mutual love, mutual peace of mind A simple gesture, quietly kind Am I wrong to ruin it, by making it mine? I am more than what I accept willingly I strive to create my own despondency I am more than what has been said I’m not living to one day be dead She didn’t like anyone in particular Quite common, ordinary and insular Death came and forgot to take her away Discarded on the foggy moor Distressed ’til she found a hidden door Metaphor, overgrown, in need of love